Jordan & Betsy Knorr
True North Community Church
Penticton, British Columbia
I (Jordan) grew up all over the place that included 15-20 different homes that were scattered through western Canada and 5 states. Moving to so many different places, and leaving the old ones behind, I was driven to figure out who I was, who was the person that I was going to say Jordan was at the next place? I wanted to know who I was in a genuine and real sense. Trying to find out who I was in the party scene or in the mixed martial arts world or even pretending like I was a Christian, never brought any true satisfaction. I must admit I didn’t really know who I was going to say I was till I was 19. During this time I had been praying hard for about six weeks asking God, if He existed, to reveal Himself to me because I heard He died for me but I didn’t feel the way I thought I should’ve felt about someone dying for me. I wasn’t truly grateful.
Driving home one night from the place where I trained in martial arts God broke into my life. I didn’t hear an audible voice but I like to say I had a heart to heart with the Ruler of the universe. I asked myself with what I believe was with the Holy Spirit’s influence, “Jordan are you satisfied fighting with your fists or chasing the party scene, does this satisfy you enough?” Yelling, “NO” I began to weep. “Do you want to be satisfied?” Now yelling, “YES” I began to weep harder. Then came the statement that has changed my life from that point forward, “Fight for God, His way, and you will find true, life-giving satisfaction that will last for eternity.”
From that moment on I quit fighting with my fists and trusted God to find me the wife that He has. Through obedience to His word (the bible), obedience to His body (the church), and the continual day in and day out of learning to deny myself for the sake of His glory, I began to learn what it means to fight His way. There came strong convictions of my personal sin followed by thankfulness that He wiped them away when He died, taking the punishment for those sins. Therein lies what has over taken my daily thoughts. He left us a guide (the bible) to show us how we are supposed to live, and he gave us His Holy Spirit and spiritual brother and sisters (the church) to help us along the way. I can honestly say that I truly believe that the satisfaction our hearts long for can only be found in making Jesus Christ the Lord of our life.
Now I know with out a doubt who I am, and it has everything to do with whose I am, I am a child of God.